Mental Clarity
I started meditating as part of my challenge. I must say, I am happier and I have greater mental clarity. I’ve had an internal debate regarding the work/career/profession debacle. As a feminist and a law school graduate, I feel guilty for even thinking about opting out of the workforce. I go back and forth on the issue.
My fears were image based. I was scared of being judged, specifically by other women. Mental clarity hit on Sunday morning. I went to my film festival meeting and we had a few new members, thus did the introduce ourselves thing. One member made a request that we share where we worked and what we did for a living. When it was my turn, I stated my name and profession and got a few oohs and aaahs (before that would have mattered). Two women stated that currently they are not working and happy being wives. Jealous isn’t the right word, but I desired to be able to say that. I wanted to say, “right now I’m a wife and mother.”
Currently, I want to stay at home and be a nurturing wife and mother while pursuing my passions. I want to opt out of the traditional workforce. For the first time, I can type these words with ZERO guilt. Ironically, I feel liberated.
My fears were image based. I was scared of being judged, specifically by other women. Mental clarity hit on Sunday morning. I went to my film festival meeting and we had a few new members, thus did the introduce ourselves thing. One member made a request that we share where we worked and what we did for a living. When it was my turn, I stated my name and profession and got a few oohs and aaahs (before that would have mattered). Two women stated that currently they are not working and happy being wives. Jealous isn’t the right word, but I desired to be able to say that. I wanted to say, “right now I’m a wife and mother.”
Currently, I want to stay at home and be a nurturing wife and mother while pursuing my passions. I want to opt out of the traditional workforce. For the first time, I can type these words with ZERO guilt. Ironically, I feel liberated.
