It has been exactly one month since I was at the OBGYN and received confirmation via vaginal ultra-sound that my baby died. Thanks to loved ones and all of your support I have been able to bear this pain. There are days where my heart is heavy and sadness comes over me that I can’t shake. Those are they days that I just want to curl up in my bed under a thick blanket.
Mourning a miscarriage is a private affair. I feel like I lost a baby, a baby that I deeply wanted. This baby was more than a mass of cells to me. I would have been at the end of my first trimester. I hope this gets easier.
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My friend Smurf is pregnant. She's 32 years old and 11 weeks along. I met up with her and other festival folk for a weekend project. ... -
I'm kinda scared of brownies. Okay, scared is a strong word. Plus I'm married to a South Asian, does that give me street cred ? ... -
I find you to be a f*cking cunt. I hope there is a special place in hell for a b*tch like you. You never deserved to have children. Here ...
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Chica, May 2007 be the year of a li'l Benjabi to play with :)
All best wishes!
...have been a silent reader for a while now and couldn't comment since you only allowed blogger accounts...glad i can now chime in with my $0.02 from time to time:)...i won't give you the ususal platitudes that it'll get better with time, all things come to a pass etc etc...just that may you find peace and happiness soon...and a healthy, happy baby to go along with it when the time is right...
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I can honestly say that I know what you are going through. Whether or not the baby was planned....you feel as if a part of you is missing. I still feel empty sometimes...and it's been over 2 years. But you know what....when we reach the other side....I think there will be beautiful children waiting for us. Where God shuts a door....he opens a window....I hope you get to have another baby soon!! My thoughts are with ya! (I found you from Mango's blog...haha...and Roonies!)
I am so sorry that you have had to experience such grief. I am not in that stage of my life, so I don't know what it feels like, but I wish you strength and peace. You are blessed to have so many people who care about you. Take care.
oh BC--
my condolences.
best wishes for another blessing...perhaps us family-minded bloggers will be able to commiserate on the dicomfort of pregnancy this year.
I'm so so sorry. My mom had 2 miscarriages and my MIL had 3, so I (foolishly) thought I could not get too attached to my baby when I first found out I was pregnant. Of course that was impossible. I was so attached to those cells from the moment I found out, I could barely imagine how much it would hurt to lose it.
I wish you all the best in the future!!
hi bengali chick -- i'm a lurker and i think occasional commenter. i'm posting anonymously this time, hope that's ok. i wanted to post when you first wrote about your miscarriage, but of course you asked for no sympathy and since i don't even know you, i just prayed for you from afar. anyway, i just wanted to say that i have really been hoping for your safe emotional recovery and a future, healthy pregnancy. i have been in your shoes and have sadly watched many friends go through it as well. it may be something you never forget but hopefully not something that will always weigh on your heart the way it does now. best wishes to you.
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