Day 3 of Healing My Past: 32 years old
We're having family visit. One person in particular is not a very happy person, she has moods where's quite unhappy and bitter. She is also very pushy about her views, in a way that isn't exactly respectful. I find her tiring. Her energy can be draining.
Last night, I reacted a bit, just a bit to her antics. And I shouldn't have. I want to be in a place where I don't need my hands on my heart chakra while listening to her speak to me. I want to look at her with love and light and not ever get into that catty place.
Fuck man, it's hard!!!
So I sent reiki to me, the last week or so. My heart needed some energy. Also, I have to fully realize that I can never change her. I must accept her as is and control my own reaction.
Last night, I reacted a bit, just a bit to her antics. And I shouldn't have. I want to be in a place where I don't need my hands on my heart chakra while listening to her speak to me. I want to look at her with love and light and not ever get into that catty place.
Fuck man, it's hard!!!
So I sent reiki to me, the last week or so. My heart needed some energy. Also, I have to fully realize that I can never change her. I must accept her as is and control my own reaction.
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Labels: past healing, reiki
