Manifest My Desire

Last night I used the distance symbol to send Reiki to the birth of my son.  I suspect he's coming very soon.  My body is just changing -- I'm not longer backed up, feel queasy, headaches, crampiness, etc.  Who knew it would feel this good to feel kinda ill.  I suppose it's because I don't really feel sick, I feel as if my body is gearing up to push my baby out.  JOY!!!

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I was very tired during the Reiki/meditation session and would phase in and out.  I felt like I was drifting out of worlds.  It was pretty trippy.  It almost felt as if I was floating from the present to the future.  I'm very much looking forward to birthing my son and feeling the Reiki that I'm sending.  I wonder if it'll feel like a burst of energy?

Hospital bag all packed:

• Makeup
• Hair straightener
• Cell phone charger
• Leggings, cute top, socks
• Outfit for baby

I'm a light packer.  Gotta remember to bring my laptop (I don't have spotify on my cell).  Plus, the hospital is just a few miles away (it's awesome living in a city).  

Prepping before baby's arrival:

• My push present will arrive today (new purse!)
• Cleaning lady will arrive soon to do deep cleaning
• Scheduled massage for Saturday
• Plan to dance under the moon on Saturday nigh (full moon and a SUPER MOON)
• Yoga for the rest of the week
• Delicious food events planned with friends this week
• Pedicure done!
• Trying to schedule a haircut
• And yeah -- carseat already installed, baby clothes washed, etc.

Labels: birth, reiki

Posted by Oni at May 03, 2012 | Permalink | Comments

I almost sent my Reiki teacher a message today to meet for tea, but then hesitated.  I want to send energy to my future.  I have a clear goal.  I'm going to send energy to my son's birth.  My gut is saying that he will arrive soon, very soon.  I can hardly wait for meditation and reiki tonight.

I feel so peaceful.  I'm more mindful and connected.  I feel confident over my decisions.  I feel more connected to my children and husband.  In sum, I feel empowered.  This rocks.

Labels: past healing, reiki

Posted by Oni at May 02, 2012 | Permalink | Comments

• ear that he'll get hurt (he's on the heals of a divorce) and I am very protective over my younger brother, fiercely so;
• Anger towards my nanny for behaving in an unprofessional manner (i.e., never having a discussion with me; make out session in my loft, etc.)
• General awkwardness while I am in my house working and she cares for my children.

Today I was reminded to go back to my fundamental Reiki precepts:  Just for today do not worry; Just for today do not anger; Just for today be honest; etc.

I have no control over any other human being.  I have full control over my emotions.  I can not worry about the emotional state of a grown man, even though he his my darling younger brother.  I can openly communicate with him and share my thoughts, but then I need to be able to detach.  I need to be able to release any negative emotions, why marinate in negative energy?

And then of course, there was a feeling of, "SHIT DUDE, why don't you get it??  You did Reiki I and II, you should be better than this!!"  Fuck that.  All of these are my experiences and they are helping me grow daily.  I will not look at myself with eyes of punishment, self-doubt, disappointment... this is my journey and my heart is open to grow in love and light.

So thank you divine consciousness for throwing this awkward curve ball my way;)

Labels: past healing, reiki

Posted by Oni at April 09, 2012 | Permalink | Comments

I failed my gestational diabetes test.  I wasn't surprised, everyone in my family has diabetes.  My genes is part of the reason I am so mindful about food and exercise.  I need to deal with the genetic hand I have been dealt.  On Monday, I had a 3 hour glucose tolerance test.  I passed!!!  No gestational diabetes.  This was a gentle reminder to be even more mindful about my sugar intake.  My body just doesn't process sugar well and it's super important that I choose healthy carbs.  Thank you -- got the message loud and clear.

Before the glucose tolerance I sent Reiki back to this past year.  It was an interesting meditation.  This issue I'm currently having kept coming to mind.  I believe the point was to let go of this negative energy and anxiety.  My son already told me that he's healthy and my occasional indulgences do not effect him, but adding stress and anxiety is not good for him.

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The last few days have been amazing.  My husband has been ill and I've had the opportunity to treat him with Reiki the past 2 nights.  He's very logical-minded and it's so amusing to hear him say, "WOW, I can feel the heat.  This feels so intense."  Both nights he was able to fall asleep and combat his sickness.  SCORE!!!

Labels: past healing, reiki

Posted by Oni at March 22, 2012 | Permalink | Comments