It's what happened after these Reiki sessions that's important. I recently dealt with an uncomfortable and awkward situation. My brother is dating my live-in nanny and it created stress and anxiety in my body for the following reasons:
- ear that he'll get hurt (he's on the heals of a divorce) and I am very protective over my younger brother, fiercely so;
- Anger towards my nanny for behaving in an unprofessional manner (i.e., never having a discussion with me; make out session in my loft, etc.)
- General awkwardness while I am in my house working and she cares for my children.
I have no control over any other human being. I have full control over my emotions. I can not worry about the emotional state of a grown man, even though he his my darling younger brother. I can openly communicate with him and share my thoughts, but then I need to be able to detach. I need to be able to release any negative emotions, why marinate in negative energy?
And then of course, there was a feeling of, "SHIT DUDE, why don't you get it?? You did Reiki I and II, you should be better than this!!" Fuck that. All of these are my experiences and they are helping me grow daily. I will not look at myself with eyes of punishment, self-doubt, disappointment... this is my journey and my heart is open to grow in love and light.
So thank you divine consciousness for throwing this awkward curve ball my way;)
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