Being Present

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Last night, we went grocery shopping.  The kids and S waited in the car while I quickly put away the frozen/fridge goods.  Then I started getting the heebeejeebees.
Childhood fears haunted me.  Afraid of being alone at our place.  Afraid of the monsters lurking in the shadows.

I said, "STOP!  Enough of this.  Focus on the present."  I focused first on my breathe and then the produce that had to be put away.  Soon enough, the idle fear chatter in my brain stopped.  I was at peace.

Anyone can become a jedi master=)  Can I just say, WOW -- this works!!!

Joshua Tree -- Magical

Yesterday, I went on an adventure to Joshua Tree.  Our first stop was the public sound bath at the Integratron.  The dude who built it was an engineer and a leader in the UFO movement.  After making contact he created the Ingratron (sound dome) and described it as, "The Integratron is a machine, a high-voltage electrostatic generator that would supply a broad range of frequencies to recharge the cell structure."  The drive was about 2 hours outside of Los Angeles.  It was a rainy day in the desert.  Luckily, it wasn't crowded and we were able to buy a ticket for the 30 minute public sound bath.  Basically, you just lie there and meditate.  The sound enveloped me, it's as if I was floating in a bubble of sound.  I thought I had meditated for 10 minutes and was shocked to discover that an hour passed by.  


Then we headed out for a hike and to check out Joshua trees.  The rain subsided and the sun kissed us with her warmth.  The sight was awe inspiring -- mountains, formations made out of rocks and these crazy trees (reminded me of something out of a Dr. Seuss book).  We sat on yoga mats.  I could have sat there forever meditating if it wasn't for the fire ants!

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They say Joshua Tree and and the Integratron is on an energy vortex.  I felt it.  It was easier to meditate.  It was easier to connect with God/Source.  As soon as I awoke from my meditation at the Integratron, the message was clear -- God is everywhere and we are all connected.  I also did a Reiki self-treatment session at the Integratron -- I intuitively knew that my belly and heart needed healing.  My hands buzzed in warmth. I'd awken from my medidtative state, switch hand positions and would fall right back into meditation.

Back to Monday -- I just did a reiki self-treatment session while listening to my favorite rendition of the gayatri mantra. The song is about 8 minutes long, I had to replay on youtube about 4-5 times.  The session lasted about 45 minutes.  My head is still tingly and I feel woozy.  I need water, super thirsty.  I have bouts of self-doubt, but I have to remind myself to have faith.